I had a hard time accepting my homosexuality. I married a woman twenty years ago. At the time I thought I was bisexual, although she didn’t know it. But over the past 5 years or so, I’ve come to realize that I’m a homosexual. I only masturbate to men, my only fantasies are men, even when I have sex with my wife. I started watching gay porn a few years ago and I had never been so turned on. I also sucked a few cocks in college, but I thought I was just experimenting. But it wasn’t. I loved sucking cock. Homosexuality wasn’t as accepted at the time(late 80’s). During college, I did have several girl friends that questioned my sexuality. I would always pretend to get offended. In reality I was relieved that they might know. I even had a friend that told me “ I know you’re gay.” I asked her how she knew. She said there’s something about the way you act when hot guys are around!! Finally in my late 40’s I began to accept the cock lover I am. I have embraced my love for the masculine! As of now, my wife still doesn’t know, but I think she suspects. I’m hoping to soon open up to her. – Shane
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Hey brother, it’s up to you to decide when to come out to your wife. Although, I would advice you to do so sooner rather than late. Time is wasting, both yours, and hers. You may expect there to be hurt feelings and bruised egos. Some women don’t take that kind of news well, and internalize it and think that she ”made you gay”. She may be mad at you for wasting her youth by not coming out sooner, etc. Whatever happens, you must ride it out, and see it through. It will be tough, but you can do it. You may feel bad for her, understand her… but you can’t sacrifice your whole life and happiness for her, or you will grow into a sad, impotent shadow of a man. Don’t settle for the comfort of the known, but instead embrace the unknown. You stand on the cusp of a life of freedom, and maybe even a second ”puberty” of sorts. When a man takes that step and starts leading the life he’s always been meant for, it’s a profound experience. One that I share. It wasn’t until I fully embraced my homosexuality that I finally felt like a real man. And remember, you are no less of a man for being homo. You are more. Good luck, bro. – Ben
i started doing guys at 17. i lived in a conservative place and was called names, shunned and queerbashed. One day I stopped being ashamed of what people thought of me and moved to a city where i met other guys like me. tubs, shrubs and clubs, i had lots of fun…, Now I’m a senior citizen and don’t tomcat anymore. I don’t regret any of the men I had, just the opportunities I turned down.
Being married myself, I too struggled to accept that I could be attracted to men. But as I found that I was dreaming about cock the desire would not go away; I began to explore my feelings by looking on the net until I found this site. I then found a a safe chat site in the city where I live and finally met with my first man. He led me into new pleasures that I never thought I would experience. Never thought I would have the courage to suck cock but that all changed that day. I sucked on his cock until he was ready cum and then he sprayed his cum all over my face and chest, I love cock
Ian, I am also married. I tried to avoid my desire to be with a man, but gave up. Nothing will change it. I’ll have to live with this in me most probable for the rest of my life.
Thank you Zhak, I I only realized that I had this latent desire for men in later life, I am very discreet about what I do with men but I can assure you that there is pleasure to be found. Just be sure it is the “right” person first. Ian
After years of masturbating with men online, and when I the independence that my out of town office afforded me finally sunk in, I invited a friend to come and masturbate. Only masturbate, of course. And the second guy I invited, I felt the irresistible urge to suck, and he let me. And then I was asking men to come and let me suck them, and when they were here, my breath was taken away each time their pants came off and revealed their cock. Only cocksucking, of course, yo know. Nothing homosexual, of course
Loving cock and how complete I feel as their cock is pulsing warm semen into my mouth was a big surprise to me. I didn’t see it coming. And so I ask myself, in private, scary moments (or when I’m here) what else do I not see coming. Sucking cock peeled away veil upon veil of inhibition, every encounter more fell away. So I wonder, what might be the veils that I don’t even see?
It’s very hard thing to be honest about yourself if you’ve grown up in an environment that tells you that who you truly are is not acceptable. You’re made to feel shame and guilt, which is such a soul destroyer.
I lived like that for years and years. I shared my life with a woman for many years, and although it was good, towards the end I knew I couldn’t continue not being truthful to myself – I even tried to take my own life.
Life is short, we only got one chance at it. Doesn’t matter what age you are, you have to live your life, your true self.
Life is beautiful so enjoy it.
Bless You!
Here is a picture of Michael Phelps in the shower. I’ve had it for a couple of years and it’s time I shared it. He possesses an ozzieenormous cock and impressive balls. You may have to download it from MS Word.
Michael-Phelps
Absolutely true to those who are contemplating to come out! Don’t waste your time by living a life that is not what you want. Be bi or be gay, it does not matter. My experiences with men who are/were married/in relationship with a female have been positive. They can enjoy more (wild) sex, as their female partners do not. Those years of wasted cum wanking away in the bathroom.
I do not believe that loving sucking cock automatically make you gay. I think suck8ng cock is fun and extremely sexual. But I love to suck pussy also. I really like more females more than males in a non-sexual environment. But like that equally in a sexual environment i
Your Creator made you the way you and loves you the way you are don’t ever forget that😇🫶🌈🐑
Yeah. Cock is the best. It’s just a fact. In my life I am finally happy to embrace cock, to feel it grow, to suck it and love it, to feel it in my arse. Yep. Cock is cool. Glad I came out and not a moment too soon. Best to be honest about these things because while you discover many people couldn’t care less, you do. You need to be honest with yourself and once you do it is amazing what a relief that brings.