The Awareness Of My Curiosity

The awareness of my curiosity into man to man sex came in my early teens. It excited me and fueled masturbation as much as heterosexual thoughts. But the fact that I fantasized about men also scared me.

It was the 1970s and no one spoke much about bisexuality, but rather spoke the opinion that there was straight and gay, leaving me quite confused. Thankfully an older friend and mentor lead me on a path of discovery, somewhat tearing down the stigma I feared. My teen years were filled with the “typical” young male discovery of women, but also a deeply profound journey of sex with other men. Yes, I remained closeted, but moved comfortably between my sexual realities. I stepped away fro male sex for a number of years, forcing myself to abstain through my time in the military and then college, marrying and starting a family, but the fact that I was bisexual never left me. It was only a matter of time before the need to fulfill my true sexuality surfaced and I ventured back to the arms of men, still largely closeted. Years of being single after a divorce allowed me much more freedom and I developed some wonderful relationships with men, some of whom I have continued as sex partners for many years. I have guardedly “come out” to a small number of people in my regular life. As a result I have even enjoyed sex with a couple of my otherwise straight friends. Likewise the few women I have been open with have been supportive and sometimes aroused by my sexual life. In the end, I am. That doesn’t require labels or stigma, but rather self acknowledgement. I am how I was made and wired.

I am sexual, caring, loving, passionate and more. The male body is a magnificent creation and male-2-male sexuality is a magnificent experience. Joseph

30 Replies to “The Awareness Of My Curiosity”

    1. Thanks John glad you like….always up for pic swap/video call wank/masturbation sessions if you ever up for that message me on here or lewcol25@gmail.com ✊🏼🍆💦💦💦💦👅👅👅😜😜😜

      1. Leatherlew32

        You look positively delicious, my friend. I am imagining myself kneeling between your legs, pleasuring youand receiving my reward.

        Joseph

  1. M2M sex is amazing they know what you like and how to pleasure us. They give the best blow jobs and understand us better than women. From the first time I had sex with another man, I crave it like nothing else.

  2. Hi Joseph,
    Your story could have been written about me just about word for word. For me “curiosity” is something I hid behind. I told myself I was always curious and experimenting even though I was married with children. My wife and recently separated, partially as a result of growing apart combined with curiosity turning into a deeply loving relationship with another man. What began as platonic friends with benefits became a deeply loving relationship. In hindsight I exactly regret having a wife and family but I regret being shackled but the norms of the 70’s and 80’s that had me leaning toward a curiosity that I never outgrew that could have been blossomed into love.

  3. Oh! How I can relate to this. It is exactly my life except for the divorce. I have been married for 55 years and love my wife dearly. We have been sexless since November 1999 and not by my choice. Sex with men is an incredible experience. For me it is very satisfying. No one knows I am gay and I plan to keep it that way. I didn’t ask for this life, but I am going to respect i and enjoy it.

    1. Good for you Ozzie.
      Does your wife know?
      If not, how the hell do you manage to have sex with men?
      I know there is lay-bys etc but I really want a friend. A friend to have relaxed, safe place sex with.
      I know it’s entirely up to me to sort myself out but I’d really like know how you do it.

      1. My wife does not know and no one suspects…I think. I was a pilot and out of town and country often. Honolulu was especially fun.

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