I’m writing this as I have some time available to reflect on my sexuality. I’ve been unable to masturbate for several days and during that period of abstinence I had many thoughts in my head telling me to reject homosexuality. As I prepared to masturbate I had thoughts about bating to heterosexual porn.
But as soon as I touched my cock and became erect all desire for straight sex as a stimulus left me – and I again embrace my true sexuality. I am phallic sexual. I am married to a woman and very much enjoy sex with her, but that is about intimacy and close connection, something I do not crave with other women. My sexual desire is phallic. When masturbating I am connected to phallic energy and this energy grows only with thought and images of cock and homosexuality. I also realize that I have lingering doubts and shame and I joyfully continue my journey to erasing all doubt and shame about my homosexuality. – Phalluster
