The awareness of my curiosity into man to man sex came in my early teens. It excited me and fueled masturbation as much as heterosexual thoughts. But the fact that I fantasized about men also scared me.
It was the 1970s and no one spoke much about bisexuality, but rather spoke the opinion that there was straight and gay, leaving me quite confused. Thankfully an older friend and mentor lead me on a path of discovery, somewhat tearing down the stigma I feared. My teen years were filled with the “typical” young male discovery of women, but also a deeply profound journey of sex with other men. Yes, I remained closeted, but moved comfortably between my sexual realities. I stepped away fro male sex for a number of years, forcing myself to abstain through my time in the military and then college, marrying and starting a family, but the fact that I was bisexual never left me. It was only a matter of time before the need to fulfill my true sexuality surfaced and I ventured back to the arms of men, still largely closeted. Years of being single after a divorce allowed me much more freedom and I developed some wonderful relationships with men, some of whom I have continued as sex partners for many years. I have guardedly “come out” to a small number of people in my regular life. As a result I have even enjoyed sex with a couple of my otherwise straight friends. Likewise the few women I have been open with have been supportive and sometimes aroused by my sexual life. In the end, I am. That doesn’t require labels or stigma, but rather self acknowledgement. I am how I was made and wired. I am sexual, caring, loving, passionate and more. The male body is a magnificent creation and male-2-male sexuality is a magnificent experience. Joseph
Hi Joseph,
Your story could have been written about me just about word for word. For me “curiosity” is something I hid behind. I told myself I was always curious and experimenting even though I was married with children. My wife and recently separated, partially as a result of growing apart combined with curiosity turning into a deeply loving relationship with another man. What began as platonic friends with benefits became a deeply loving relationship. In hindsight I exactly regret having a wife and family but I regret being shackled but the norms of the 70’s and 80’s that had me leaning toward a curiosity that I never outgrew that could have been blossomed into love.
Oh! How I can relate to this. It is exactly my life except for the divorce. I have been married for 55 years and love my wife dearly. We have been sexless since November 1999 and not by my choice. Sex with men is an incredible experience. For me it is very satisfying. No one knows I am gay and I plan to keep it that way. I didn’t ask for this life, but I am going to respect i and enjoy it.
Good for you Ozzie.
Does your wife know?
If not, how the hell do you manage to have sex with men?
I know there is lay-bys etc but I really want a friend. A friend to have relaxed, safe place sex with.
I know it’s entirely up to me to sort myself out but I’d really like know how you do it.
My wife does not know and no one suspects…I think. I was a pilot and out of town and country often. Honolulu was especially fun.
That’s wonderful 👍
My teens were a bit confusing. My first sexual experiences were homosexual but I moved onto girls at sixteen solely because they became accessible. I never forgot my early and very enjoyable activities though and when, in my thirties , via a mfm threesome, I had the opportunity to suck a cock again, I felt like I’d come home. It was utterly wonderful.
I then got married, had kids etc but I’ve always missed the man thing. I’m 64 now, still bloody fit for my age, if I watch porn, it’s homosexual porn and finding this HaPenis site last weekend has been a godsend.
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It is wonderful and helps us finding out so many guys feel the same way.
I loved reading Joseph’s story and think it’s inspiring to read about his sexual experience, I to grew up in the 1970s but wasn’t fully aware I was mostly gay until I was in my twenties, I enjoy gay sex in most forms and love the male body , even now I tend to be Abit discreet as I have people I know aren’t very open minded , but I’m proud of who I am
A few people know I’m bisexual, including my wife. I don’t mind about other people knowing as long as the blokes at work don’t find out, that really wouldn’t go down well.
My wife really doesn’t like it at all and wishes I’d never told her, she says the thought of two men together disgusts her. Ho hum. The thought of two men having sex makes my cock hard.
I suppose the fact that I don’t have homosexual sex makes me lust for it all the more. I crave the feel of a man.
Having sex with other men is amazing, no regrets I love it.
It is great seeing men being honest about sex, more so once they discover sex with each other.
Nice cock, sexy man. I thought everything was out in the open by the nineties? Early seventies wasn’t easy, especially at the boarding school I had to endure which was confusingly homo erotic and also homophobic. Very difficult for a thirteen year old boy.
Have you ever had sex with a woman, did you experiment to make sure that your homosexual? A personal question but from my own experience, I would have chosen homosexuality had I not met the woman I’m married to. I do not regret my decision but I do feel I am missing something in my life.
Overall, my bisexuality has been bit of a bind.
I discovered my homosexuality very early on. Stumbling onto the fact my father was also homosexual made it easier to accept my own true self. I did try sex with women but preferred other guys.
Far more eloquent than my own musings. I was dismayed by my bisexuality in my teens, I did not want to be queer but I was aroused by certain boys I knew. You were fortunate in accepting the guidance of an older man, I’m not sure I would have, I found the attention of men very unwelcome in my teens. Fear I suppose but I did have quite a lot of fun with young my of a similar age to myself.
Like you, I left my homosexual side for a while, decades in fact but it has resurfaced and it continues to disrupt my life. I’m still married to a woman who loves me, we have a good life on the whole but I want a man, a very close friend as well..
It probably will not happen due to either one, my wife, or the other, the male lover.
Yes Mark I was very eloquent at a young age I knew what I wanted and I made sure I was very clued up about being gay, what gay sex was about and how boys and men met for sex I was very interested and so eager to find out for myself what gay sex was like so I was always on the Internet watching gay porn and masturbating or just researching everything and anything else there was about gay men and gay sex….plus there were far more gay dating/meet up websites back then to chat and arrange meets not like grindr….I was just so intrigued and fascinated about gay sex I was just very sexually aware and I knew I would have to have sex with a man which I did at 14 years old I was determined and I’m glad I did I never regretted anything I loved my teens
My teens were a bit confusing. My first sexual experiences were homosexual but I moved onto girls at sixteen solely because they became accessible. I never forgot my early and very enjoyable activities though and when, in my thirties , via a mfm threesome, I had the opportunity to suck a cock again, I felt like I’d come home. It was utterly wonderful.
I then got married, had kids etc but I’ve always missed the man thing. I’m 64 now, still bloody fit for my age, if I watch porn, it’s homosexual porn and finding this HaPenis site last weekend has been a godsend.
II’m glad you realised your homosexuality and I hope have a good man/boyfriend/husband.
I love being a gay man even when I was young, men just understand how to pleasure us better.
Ty I totally agree with you….I have always thought that men just have what I need sexually and can take care of that where as women could never satisfy anything sexually for me and sex with men is more intense and physical in my opinion…in my teens I wanted a big muscular older bloke to grab me and slam me off his fat throbbing cock I wanted him to be bigger In height and bigger in cock size and obviously women could never compare…. I know I was born to be gay and I’m so glad I’m gay we have better sex and better porn than straight
Yes, I agree. We didn’t ask for this gift but God gave it to us, anyway.
Yes and I’m so happy and glad god or whoever made me who I am and I am relieved I didn’t go down the road of trying to juggle a straight married life with a secret gay sex life as I know now I’d have never have been truly happy…but for the men who can do that I praise them how strong they are as I could never cope emotionally
I was 15 when I first tasted a man. He was a 35 year old neighbor, friend, and mentor. I do not regret it at all. Through him I met other even older men and teens my age. It was a glorious period of exploration.
lovely absolutely lovely story , lovely and exciting you & your nice cock il’´ make a wank in your honour. wishng we could have sex together .. unfortunately we are too far in space and time
When I got married for the second time I was not sure if I could talk about liking cock as well as pussy. After about 3 years I finally opened up to my wife. She was fine with it as long as I was careful. I have been enjoying both since.
Always feel men are curious. In the 70s way so difficult to meet a guy for fun.
So.much easier currently.
I love this story I think every gay/bisexual man can relate in a lot of way remembering what it was like growing up as a teenager whatever decade it was in….mine was in the late 80s early 90s and realising from a young age what being gay was and what it meant was first a real worry about ever coming out as I grew up in the North of England I’m the 90s where nobody was out and proud, it was full of homophobia, nobody in my family or friends that I knew of were gay, literally I didn’t know of a soul who was gay so the idea of anyone knowing my secret was petrifying as it was just not viewed as normal or acceptable but at the same time I grew up were from being the age of 9 years old I was very sexually aware and had started masturbating as back then it was learned from a young age I had learned how to masturbate from an older lad and a VHS porn video that he had of his brothers and as he was 13 at the time he was obviously masturbating and I learned one day sat in his living room one morning when we had bunked off school and parents were at work….I remember sitting there him on one sofa me on another our school pants round our ankles watching this 80s American porn tape and he kept rewinding and replaying the scene of a muscled blonde American dude wanking and shooting his hot thick load and he kept saying just copy him and you’ll spunk like him…anyway he spunked all up his school shirt and tie and then all of a sudden my first orgasm moaning and groaning jerking all over but nothing came out of mine….I was confused but I remember him laughing and saying it’s right lad I didn’t spunk for ages an then it just happened….I know now I was just really young and not hit puberty….. but from then on hanging around with this 13 year old lad and feeling older I was obsessed with masturbation and I soon became aware that every time I masturbated with him I always cumed when I was fixated on watching him shoot his load all over his school uniform or I always wanted the scenes were there was always the big hot muscled dudes wanking and shooting their loads and I was always way more interested in just masturbating with him at his house then around a year later still only 10 years old I had come across queer as folk (Google it if you don’t know it) and BANG! I realised I was gay and was turned on by men – but i was not happy I was angry, sad and worried because all I had heard about what gay was were that it was dirty, wrong, not normal, was not accepted by anyone and I’d be bullied and beaten to death if anyone knew….but then around the same time my parents had bought a brand new PC with dial up Internet connection and so even before I had even started high school I had found hardcore gay porn and was already masturbating to hardcore gay porn every day after school as I had the house to myself till atleast 7pm most days as parents worked long hours so I was absolutely loving it! And especially half term I was obsessed! I was so turned on and so excited that I had this secret and because it was wrong which made it more of a turn on and having the freedom to masturbate for hours watching the most amazing hardcore gay porn that I’d ever seen in my life! So one big part of me was absolutely loving life and was so horny and couldn’t wait to watch more hardcore gay porn and have my next wank but then another part of me was disgusted and hated being gay….but I always knew the temptation was too great to want to see hot sexy men and watch them fuck and suck each other, watch their faces as they moan and groan and watch them shoot their load – I just had to have my daily intake of hardcore gay porn I had to see it and I had to masturbate and it was that feeling of it being wrong and dirty that drove my horny-ness….fast-forward to 14 years old in high school and the obsession and masturbation watching hardcore gay porn every single day I had arranged my first meet with a bloke online, I just knew I needed to have gay sex and I had found by this point I was seriously attracted to older men so I lied and said I was 17 even though I was 14 and met a 36 year old bloke who I’d spoke to for 2 months, spoke on the phone, had webcam masturbation sessions etc so one night I sneaked out of my house and met him near my house absolutely petrified but I got in his car and we drove round for hours and chatted really fancied him decided he was safe and was good, till he suddenly grabbed my crotch and rubbed my cock so I did the same and WOW the first few seconds/minutes both rubbing each others crotches and feeling his fat bulging cock getting harder absolutely blew my mind I was instantly turned on and instantly rock hard and I knew straight away I wanted to have gay sex for the first time but also lose my virginity and my gay virginity! We pulled into a dark alleyway got on the back seats he lubed me up and wore a condom which I liked and I swear from what felt like his massive fat throbbing cock entering me to him eventually absolutely pounding my tight 14 year old school boy hole I was in ecstasy! It didn’t hurt one bit it felt amazing and good and I fucking loved every single minute of it, getting fucked by an older experienced man, kissing me hard and having him cum inside me was what I wanted and I never regretted having gay sex so young…. I know it was underage but I instigated it I wanted it and I lied about my age and from there I was hooked! At school through the day i was This teenage scally school boy totally straight and thought of as a mischievous rule breaker bad boy persona who always had girlfriends infront of his mates and family….at night I would be on the back seat of a blokes car getting fucked up the arse and hot thick spunk shot down my throat and then walking home with spunk dribbling out of my arse and even the next day sat in lesson at school I would sometimes still be dribbling spunk in my school pants! I learned to love having a secret life it added to the thrill….then fast-forward 20 years I’m out and proud happy as I could be and still at 34 I’m as cock mad as ever, masturbation is a big part of my life as I’m now a hardcore popperbator, I’m still obsessed with gay hardcore porn but I soon learned in my late teens I had a massive gay leather porn/clothing fetish….I knew within myself and being so intensely sexually aware at a young age and just always wanting to discover more when watching gay hardcore porn I soon felt I needed even more satisfaction and gay leather fetish porn/clothing watching and masturbating to it or having sex sessions wearing full leather fetish clothing – the smell the feel the sound and look of black leather fetish clothing was what I was looking for…so now I’m mid thirties and I know now I was made to be gay….I was made to have cock inside me I was made to suck cock and drink hot thick spunk….I was made to be a popperbator and I was definitely made to have a gay leather fetish….I love everything about men and everything about gay sex and gay hardcore leather porn and that why I love being gay….here’s a few pics of me…. enjoy 😜