“You take the first step into a tribe, then you can become one of them. That is what we did when we explored the gay world. I left the gay community of my town after realising it didn’t add anything but frustration and disappointment after having much fun, it was just hard to keep up. Maybe you aren’t masculine as a driver truck cos you aren’t a driver truck, if you were one you’d be like them, just an example. I immersed into the straight men world through my new job and all I can say is that It really surprised me. At beginning it bothered me not being brave enough to tell them the truth before they would ask my opinion about a woman or make jokes about someone behaving as a faggot, such never offends me but just because they could feel like a fool. But eventually one of them asked me directly and was very open to hear and understand my personal life. Throughout the time we shared things about life and we all discovered so many similarities, same traumas, same difficulties, same goals, same conflicts, same mistakes. I found out I had always been one of them, but I didn’t believe I would. They never told me I shouldn’t be homosexual nor tried to convert me. They don’t really bother if a man is feminine, everybody is free. Any kind of expression should exist without extinguish masculinity. Being straight doesn’t mean being masculine, many straight men are on that journey. Being homo doesn’t mean being banned, but many gays don’t identify themselves with it or want to prove they can live without it. Man/masculinity is an endangered species, it can get extinct.” Parpus
This is my experience as well. I have never been shunned or chided by straight men for my sexuality. On the contrary, most of them are curious and want to know how it works. I’m a very masculine presence, and that makes them feel secure in their own manhood. The questions I get range from anything about sex to emotions and relationships. I also get asked a lot of political questions. Most times my answers both surprise and comfort straight men because they realize that outside the bedroom, I’m no different from them. A few of the straight men I hang out with have practically engaged in full-on platonic bromance with me. Nothing sexual at all, but they gladly make jokes full of sexual innuendo, and even very graphic homoerotic jokes and comments that involve themselves in a sexual situation with me etc, – and they do it in front of each other without shame. I’m their buffer and no words can describe how grateful I am towards them for being so relaxed and inclusive. We really live in a great time era to be homo.
Ben
“YOU CAN TAKE THE BOY OUT OF THE COUNTRY BUT YOU CAN”T TAKE……..”
YOU CAN ALWAYS LEAVE THE GAY ” COMUNITY” IN SOME FORM BUT YOU DO NOT E V A LEAVE ALL OF GAY LIFE OR SEXUALITY.
I KNOW PEOPLE, EVEN PARENTS OF KIDS WHO HAVE TRIED TO DEFY THEIR TRUE NATURE AND THEY HAVE ACCOMPLISHED ONLY SCREWING UP THEIR HEADS AND MINDS FOR DECADES.
NOW AT THE AGE OF ALMOST 80 YEARS, I SURVIVED THE 50’S TO THE PRESENT TIME AND AN OFTEN NASTY AND HOMOPHOBIC, LATE FATHER… AND AGAINGST HIS WISHES I BECAME A STAR PERFORMER IN MY FIELD, TRAVELING TO EVERY CONTINENT ON EARTH. I WAS MARRIED HETEROSEXUALLY TWICE AND PARTNERED HOMOSEXUALLY 5 TIMES.
SOMEHOW I ACCEPTED MY SEXUALITY AS SEX WITHOUT QUESTION AND AT THE AGE OF 7 YRS I KNEW THAT I WAS WHAT WE NOW CALL GAY, ALTHOUGH THE WORD GAY DID NOT EXIST TO DESCRIBE GAY PEOPLE AT THAT TIME,,,,
SO THIS WORD AND MANY MORE , WORDS, LABELS AND DESCRIPTIONS DID NOT EXIST FOR US. AND WE AS GAY MEN AT THE TIME SHOOK THEM OFF AND FOR MANY OF US THEY WERE SHAKEN OFF FOREVER
THIS WAS TYPICAL OF OUR TIMES, JUST LIKE MEN NOT BEING ALLOWED TO WEAR BATHING SUITS IN PUBLIC POOLS (FOR HEALTH REASONS) FOR MUCH OF MY LIFE.
I AM HAPPY I WAS BORN IN 1944.
DOUG
This is my experience as well. I have never been shunned or chided by straight men for my sexuality. On the contrary, most of them are curious and want to know how it works. I’m a very masculine presence, and that makes them feel secure in their own manhood. The questions I get range from anything about sex to emotions and relationships. I also get asked a lot of political questions.
Most times my answers both surprise and comfort straight men because they realize that outside the bedroom, I’m no different from them. A few of the straight men I hang out with have practically engaged in full-on platonic bromance with me. Nothing sexual at all, but they gladly make jokes full of sexual innuendo, and even very graphic homoerotic jokes and comments that involve themselves in a sexual situation with me etc, – and they do it in front of each other without shame. I’m their buffer and no words can describe how grateful I am towards them for being so relaxed and inclusive. We really live in a great time era to be homo.
As ever Ben. Beautifully expressed and perfectly balanced. Men like to belong and finding common ground is very reassuring. It’s wonderful to be accepted as “one of the boys”. There is great affirmation to be respected by men, amongst men, gay, str8, bi or fluid.