Always Been Gay

I don’t know why I am so attracted to older men, but I am. I met a man online about six years ago. He’s 13 years older than me. We are both “straight” married guys only looking for a friend with benefit situation. I’ve had lots of hook ups with other straight married men. They were almost always fun. Things went differently this time. After our first meeting we decided that things went well and we could indeed have a friends with benefits situation. As time went on we seem to hit it off more and more. I don’t remember when it happened but we both started using the word “love”. That’s not supposed to happen. We were only intending to be friends with benefits. It’s going on six years we are both head over heels and love and admit to ourselves that we’ve always been gay. He’s still married but I’m separated. We are in a very precarious situation But committed to somehow making it work. I’ve always been attracted to older men and now I’m in love with one. JoE