I had a hard time accepting my homosexuality. I married a woman twenty years ago. At the time I thought I was bisexual, although she didn’t know it. But over the past 5 years or so, I’ve come to realize that I’m a homosexual. I only masturbate to men, my only fantasies are men, even when I have sex with my wife. I started watching gay porn a few years ago and I had never been so turned on. I also sucked a few cocks in college, but I thought I was just experimenting. But it wasn’t. I loved sucking cock. Homosexuality wasn’t as accepted at the time(late 80’s). During college, I did have several girl friends that questioned my sexuality. I would always pretend to get offended. In reality I was relieved that they might know. I even had a friend that told me “ I know you’re gay.” I asked her how she knew. She said there’s something about the way you act when hot guys are around!! Finally in my late 40’s I began to accept the cock lover I am. I have embraced my love for the masculine! As of now, my wife still doesn’t know, but I think she suspects. I’m hoping to soon open up to her. – Shane
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Hey brother, it’s up to you to decide when to come out to your wife. Although, I would advice you to do so sooner rather than late. Time is wasting, both yours, and hers. You may expect there to be hurt feelings and bruised egos. Some women don’t take that kind of news well, and internalize it and think that she ”made you gay”. She may be mad at you for wasting her youth by not coming out sooner, etc. Whatever happens, you must ride it out, and see it through. It will be tough, but you can do it. You may feel bad for her, understand her… but you can’t sacrifice your whole life and happiness for her, or you will grow into a sad, impotent shadow of a man. Don’t settle for the comfort of the known, but instead embrace the unknown. You stand on the cusp of a life of freedom, and maybe even a second ”puberty” of sorts. When a man takes that step and starts leading the life he’s always been meant for, it’s a profound experience. One that I share. It wasn’t until I fully embraced my homosexuality that I finally felt like a real man. And remember, you are no less of a man for being homo. You are more. Good luck, bro. – Ben
Wow – this thread rings so true to me. I’ve been married for 36 years and still am – happily. And while I love her I also love homosexuality even though I don’t engage in it. While I understand comments telling Shane to embrace homosexuality and move on, I’m not convinced that is the best advice for all men like me/us. I’m on this site daily, which exposes my level of interest in male homosexuality, I bate only to homosexuality, but I’m also comfortable remaining committed to my wife and our relationship. If the world was perfect I’d have the best of both – remaining in my marriage and having homosexual sex outside the marriage (or better yet shared within!). But life is full of compromise and as long as I get to fantasize about being in a room full of naked men who all want their cocks sucked, I’m as happy as anyone can reasonably hope to be! – Phalluster
Yeah. Cock is the best. It’s just a fact. In my life I am finally happy to embrace cock, to feel it grow, to suck it and love it, to feel it in my arse. Yep. Cock is cool. Glad I came out and not a moment too soon. Best to be honest about these things because while you discover many people couldn’t care less, you do. You need to be honest with yourself and once you do it is amazing what a relief that brings.
Yum, Yum! Thanks
Is that Dennis West, that tattoo is familiar but I didn’t recognize him without the facial hair. I used to love him as a teen, always dreamed of having a nice cum swap session. His low hangers looked so tasty
Men and their beautiful and delicious hard dicks…Dads, Bears, teens, pot-bellied, hairy or hairless…Males are a delight in any way…I just LOVE IT!
I’m in a similar situation to you – married for many years, kids, and now grandkids as well. I tried hard to be straight for so long but in my sixties the gay drumbeat inside my head became too strong. Would love to chat with others in a similar situation as I’ve not been able to resolve my situation fully.
Hi Shane,
You story’s mine too. 20 years of marriage.
My son caught me on an app 4 years ago.
I vowed I’d stop, put wife and son first and tell her if I weakened again.
I obviously did lapse but kept it secret.
Becoming suspicious of furtive phone use she confronted me last week on holiday and I confessed I am a gay man.
She’s clearly very angry about deceit but is happy for me to be me. I still need to hang in their in the family home to see son through his education.
But atleast finally at the age of 55 I’m starting to live an honest life.
Love to chat.
It took me a long time to accept my homosexuality but eventually I did in my late twenties. Before that I tried to persuade myself that I’m straight and I had girlfriends but then I realised that I can’t even have sex with them as I can’t get an erection. Then I started to date guys and here I am a cock sucker who can’t think of anything else but gay sex. 😉
Hi. I am you. But still married after 35 years. I do love her. It’s not her fault she married a cock lover. The older I get the more attracted to men I am. If anyone here that is married and want to talk please message me. Love you all. Cyber hugs.
So how does it work with urr marriage?
I’m definetly a cock lover , they’res nothing like a beautiful cock in every shape , size, cut, uncut, even though I do prefer uncut but all gorgeous!!
Amen and fucking amen.
I was trying to be straight in college and really liked this one girl. Then early 20s dated seriously. But when leaving her house late after a date I would stop at an adult store. Finally realizing that I enjoyed sucking and being sucked. This was mid 1970s. So I am now partnered for nearly 30 years but still enjoy an occasional buddy.
Live you life as you want…we only get one chance.
To Shane: Looks like you are describing me. You are a my mirror image. If you ever want to discuss in private emails let me know and I would be happy to talk to someone exactly like me. Cheers
Hi. Same here.
Hi, same story here. I left my wife of 28 years 2 years ago. The man I fell in love with didn’t….. and may never. I’m now 60 and he is 73. We are very happy together, very much in love and he treats me like a prince. He even bought me a beautiful house. (I do well professionally but he’s very wealthy.) Still, my emotions oscillate from happy and horny to lonely and deeply depressed. A therapist helps but isn’t a cure. On top of that I feel guilty for leaving my wife even though we are still friends and I support her financially, 100%. It’s very difficult to come to terms with absolutely loving sucking my partners cock, swallowing his cum and even becoming a bottom (I never saw that one coming). I don’t know how to navigate life from here. I am a planner by nature but I feel like I can’t plan my life month-to-month, yet alone year-to-year into retirement in this situation. Like others, I’m happy to discuss this situation further via email. Perhaps we can lean on each other.