The Awareness Of My Curiosity

The awareness of my curiosity into man to man sex came in my early teens. It excited me and fueled masturbation as much as heterosexual thoughts. But the fact that I fantasized about men also scared me.

It was the 1970s and no one spoke much about bisexuality, but rather spoke the opinion that there was straight and gay, leaving me quite confused. Thankfully an older friend and mentor lead me on a path of discovery, somewhat tearing down the stigma I feared. My teen years were filled with the “typical” young male discovery of women, but also a deeply profound journey of sex with other men. Yes, I remained closeted, but moved comfortably between my sexual realities. I stepped away fro male sex for a number of years, forcing myself to abstain through my time in the military and then college, marrying and starting a family, but the fact that I was bisexual never left me. It was only a matter of time before the need to fulfill my true sexuality surfaced and I ventured back to the arms of men, still largely closeted. Years of being single after a divorce allowed me much more freedom and I developed some wonderful relationships with men, some of whom I have continued as sex partners for many years. I have guardedly “come out” to a small number of people in my regular life. As a result I have even enjoyed sex with a couple of my otherwise straight friends. Likewise the few women I have been open with have been supportive and sometimes aroused by my sexual life. In the end, I am. That doesn’t require labels or stigma, but rather self acknowledgement. I am how I was made and wired.

I am sexual, caring, loving, passionate and more. The male body is a magnificent creation and male-2-male sexuality is a magnificent experience. Joseph

34 Replies to “The Awareness Of My Curiosity”

  1. A couple of years before reaching puberty a friend my age showed me how to masturbate and we did it a lot together. I would go to his house with trembling lust and desire for the moment we would both be naked together. After my family moved away and I was in gym with other boys, I was shy, and afraid, to approach other boys. I tried it a couple of times and felt rejected. I had so much desire, but felt I needed to bury it.

    I liked girls, had great girlfriends and got married, but when the internet provided safe opportunities away from home I wanted to masturbate with another man, but masturbating as a grown adult didn’t have the same innocent lust as I felt so strongly before. The missing piece came when I began sucking my JO buddies–and then looking for more men who would let me unleash my desire between their legs. I can’t begin to describe how wonderful it is to surrender and that moment when I crossed the line and sucked suck on the nipples of a hairy man’s chest.

    There are so many married men–married, widowed and divorced–who crave attention from other men and it’s beyond my wildest dreams to be open about my desire for sex and intimacy with them. It’s a continuing euphoria that I never expected, even though looking back it has always been there to be discovered.

    I’m so grateful that we are here doing the easiest and most natural thing–displaying our sexuality and allowing it to to stir those feelings in other men. It’s like riding a bicycle, so simple.

  2. Joseph you couldn’t of said it any better , I loved what you said ‘,I am sexual, caring, loving, passionate and more. The male body is a magnificent creation and male-2-male sexuality is a magnificent experience. Joseph’ just beautiful!!! I’m not sayimg this because i’m gay , but they’re isn’t anything more beautiful than a man’s bosy

    1. Thanks John glad you like….always up for pic swap/video call wank/masturbation sessions if you ever up for that message me on here or lewcol25@gmail.com ✊🏼🍆💦💦💦💦👅👅👅😜😜😜

      1. Leatherlew32

        You look positively delicious, my friend. I am imagining myself kneeling between your legs, pleasuring youand receiving my reward.

        Joseph

  3. M2M sex is amazing they know what you like and how to pleasure us. They give the best blow jobs and understand us better than women. From the first time I had sex with another man, I crave it like nothing else.

    1. More & more so called straight men seem to be exploring the joys of man sex..
      The stigma seems to be lessening now days..
      Sexual fluidity is more prevalent.
      Amen Amen

      1. I agree very much. When I first retired I was a bit bored. Was amazed how many married men craved male attention.
        Some claimed little experience but all got into the intimacy and the feel of another man.

  4. Hi Joseph,
    Your story could have been written about me just about word for word. For me “curiosity” is something I hid behind. I told myself I was always curious and experimenting even though I was married with children. My wife and recently separated, partially as a result of growing apart combined with curiosity turning into a deeply loving relationship with another man. What began as platonic friends with benefits became a deeply loving relationship. In hindsight I exactly regret having a wife and family but I regret being shackled but the norms of the 70’s and 80’s that had me leaning toward a curiosity that I never outgrew that could have been blossomed into love.

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