Being drunk led to me having my cock sucked for the first time. Returning from a heavy night in the pub, a friend and I wandered for some reason up the driveway of a random house, where we stopped to talk. Our drunken conversation led to me daring my friend to suck my penis, which he duly did. After we’d walked on a bit further, I dared him a couple of more times to suck my cock, and each time he happily complied. Sober the next morning, I felt shame and fear over the act. In fact, I’d had my first gay kiss a few weeks earlier when, drunk also, another friend had come on to me. Despite claiming that I was not gay, I remember enjoying the kissing and the sensual rubbing of his moustache against my face. After the cock-sucking, I stayed off alcohol for six months and tried to ignore the incident. But, of course, my homosexual longings won through in the end. For me, this was a clear case of “vino veritas” (in wine, there is truth). HugH
Yeah, the freedom that alcohol offers when it comes to release yourself and mind, unleashed from its boundaries and own self prejudices is a bless in some cases. The truth is that society has evolved and it’s easier to show your sexuality but for those of us who grew up in a place where it wasn’t fine to be other than straight, alcohol has been some kind of help. To me, it happened the same as to you, talking about how blatant become my comments, the way I look becomes absolutely shameless and my hands have a life of their own. – David
Alcohol makes me more relaxed and affectionate around my wife. She wishes I would drink more, but I don’t have the time and energy to process it because alcohol is so physically draining for me. But the advantage of self acceptance is that I don’t have to pretend to myself while sober, and alcohol just makes me more aware of feelings that I privately acknowledge at all times. But it also makes me aware of my good reasons for not acting on every impulse, so I betray nothing no matter how drunk. Alcohol therefore plays absolutely no role in my attraction to men. My wife knows about my feelings, and also knows that I will take absolutely no steps that would require her to deal with them or their consequences. Alerik
All of my sexual encounters and awakenings with other men have stemmed from the courage, liberation or other associated mental effects of alcohol.
However, my first time with a man was not actually drunk, but hungover. The day after a heavy session at a wedding as a single man I knew that, tired and hungover, I craved an experience with another guy and duly found it as I let an experienced older gent drain me for the first time.
It was a number or years (and a wife) later that I gained the courage to try again in a night out with friends and it had been a recurring activity on nights in town or mornings after to experiment and gain new experiences with other guys.
Strangely, I never feel the sense of regret or shame that usually comes with any bad behaviour from a drink induced activity, even when I look my wife in the eye the next day. I know what I’ve done, but it doesn’t fill me with hangover dread, just excitement and satisfaction and then I go back to my regular life…
Two friends and I once bought three bottles of cheap wine and drank a bottle each on a park bench. After about an hour, I was sitting alone on the bench and decided to jerk off. Some people were walking in the distance, and I turned a section of the lawn in front of the bench from green to white. It was fun.
Yeah, the freedom that alcohol offers when it comes to release yourself and mind, unleashed from its boundaries and own self prejudices is a bless in some cases. The truth is that society has evolved and it’s easier to show your sexuality but for those of us who grew up in a place where it wasn’t fine to be other than straight, alcohol has been some kind of help. To me, it happened the same as to you, talking about how blatant become my comments, the way I look becomes absolutely shameless and my hands have a life of their own.
I have always found barmen very sexy. Maybe it’s their welcoming smile, chatty disposition and desire to please that’s so appealing. But physically too, I find them a generally sexy bunch of men, whether young and fit or older and less defined. As well as the opportunity to talk, perching on a stool at the bar affords a great view of the man going about his duties, as he reaches up for glasses and bends down for bottles. Looking over the bar, you are guaranteed a great view of his crotch and arse. For some strange reason, the longer I sit at the bar and the more beers I drink, the more attractive the barman becomes and the more blatant becomes my leering and comments.
Alcohol makes me more relaxed and affectionate around my wife. She wishes I would drink more, but I don’t have the time and energy to process it because alcohol is so physically draining for me. But the advantage of self acceptance is that I don’t have to pretend to myself while sober, and alcohol just makes me more aware of feelings that I privately acknowledge at all times. But it also makes me aware of my good reasons for not acting on every impulse, so I betray nothing no matter how drunk. Alcohol therefore plays abdolutely no role in my attraction to men. My wife knows about my feelings, and also knows that I will take absolutely no steps that would require her to deal with them or their consequences.