The HaPenis Project

I’m a MWM in mid forties. My sex life with my wife is regular but rather pedestrian. About a year ago I discovered that my self gratification is enhanced with some anal stimulation. I started with fingers and enema tips and eventually progressed to larger objects. I can now easily take butt plugs, normal sized dildos and vibrators. Hence my dilemma. To be frank, I dont find men attractive in that way. I have no desire for a boy friend, a relationship or to anything remotely similar to romance with another man. I will however admit to a curiosity and desire to find out what it feels like to have a real dick up my ass. What does THAT feel like? Can you feel it when they cumm in you? I would love to find out. Not sure what this makes me or says about me but there it is. = Mason

i enjoyed reading that, i also could have wrote it. i too am married and when my wife is away, i get out all of my hidden dildos, plugs, vibes etc. sometimes even a trip to store for a cucumber. she hardly ever goes away, so when she does, i take full advantage. last time she was away, i fucked myself for seven hours. i was sore the next day, but well worth it. i thought i was the only person that ever did this. do you know of any website or forum or something like that? i would love to talk to others who are like this… just to see if some of my other things i do is normal well not normal but also done by others? i started watching gay porn etc. i am not gay at all yet i have fantasies of a big cock in my ass. – steelersguru

Hey Mason. To find men attractive is not a prerequisite for having good sex with men. Think of your favorite activities you like to do with you male buddies. Even though you don’t find them physically attractive, you must have some attraction towards them, right? The trust between you, the familiarity, the comradery? So why not just transfer that over to to having fun in other ways? I’m gay, true, but that doesn’t automatically mean I find all my friends attractive – yet sex with buddies has been some of the best I’ve had. Tell you one thing though, crossing that line MAY actually open up your mind to start finding men attractive. Tends to happen when a friend gives you the best orgasm you’ve ever had in your life. As for real cock in your ass, if you both do your parts right, it’s an amazing feeling. Not at all like a dildo. Cock is softer, but hard at the same time. As it enters you, the head has a yield to it the way a rubber dildo doesn’t, making penetration very pleasant. The head will shrink as it passes through your sphincter muscles and the expand on the other side, often by the prostate. Feels amazing. And yes you can often feel when he shoots his load in you, especially if he likes to be still as he cums (as opposed to keep thrusting). Some guys like to not move when climax and that’s when you cam really feel it. You can feel the cock throbbing and a slight tingle, especially if he has some pressure in his spew. Obviously I don’t have to tell you that allowing a man to cum in you is only for those you trust 100%. Good luck and have fun. – Ben