The HaPenis Project

I was the most nervous and cautious man you would ever want to meet, as I am married. As I have said here, it all began with a homoerotic dream where I visited a neighbour (fictional) after his divorce and we began drinking malt whisky together and it led to me undressing for him. I am a very conservative man and not prone to having erotic dreams which was why I disturbed but aroused by having this one. The dream stuck in my brain and I kept coming back to it in my idle moments in the day, It led me to looking at gay porn online and eventually to chatrooms. I felt like it was “safe” if it was just online. Some of those chats were hugely erotic and it led to masturbating whilst I chatted, even video chatted but discreetly. I finally met a man in a chatroom who I felt confident was genuine and gentle but knew what he was doing. We chatted over a long period of time before on one chat, he asked if we could meet. He said that it could just be coffee but somehow I knew that if I agreed to meet it would end up being more than just a chat over coffee! If you are asking yourself, why it took so long you need to realize that many married men they are crossing a rubicon. They going beyond their “comfort zone”. They want to be as sure as they can be before venturing forth! We met at his house and I came through his front door trembling like a leaf and I asked him to hug me! He did! And he did make me a coffee, though it went cold before I drank it. We had a wonderful 2-3hrs together and I made many discoveries about myself! There was enjoying our nakedness. There was kissing and sucking and dildos involved. So. a homoerotic dream was where it all began but it wasn’t where it ended. Ian