I started my journey in m2m sex when I was young, and he was much older. I regret nothing. I was curious about taking a hard cock into my mouth and he was wise enough to sense it, wise enough to bring up the subject gently, in a caring and nonthreatening manner. He was already known to me, a friend and a mentor and he had my trust, so it was natural for me that he would have my mouth, and after my first taste I knew this is where I belonged, on my knees pleasing another man. The taboo beginnings were exquisite, learning at the hands of this passionate and caring teacher. He went on to lead me to other young men like myself, and to older men who collectively gave me all I would need to grow as a willing, loving cocksucker. I love that title and wear it proudly. There were experiences with threesomes, moresomes, with virgins, and with older married men who loved to host me in their car, under their desk, or in their bed when their wives were away. It was all good, all hot, all delicious and all about me serving. Deep passionate kisses in many cases, caressing, exploring. There were women too, lots of them, and I have lived a very outwardly straight life. I married, fathered children, was a pillar of my church and a respected leader in my professional life. Little did they all know that in private I am submissive cocksucker, hungry for seaman, longing to please. I am now in my mid 60s, still married and still bisexually active. Over the years I tried anal as well and and came to love that feminizing act of taking a trusted friend into my channel and allowing him to breed me, though I admit missing the chance to devour his cum. I have a tight, trusted, small group of men who I meet and serve regularly. Many times one-on-one but often groups of three or four of us. sometimes one might bring a friend along. A new cock is always welcome. I am the center of attention for their hard cocks and they know that I will always strive to please, no matter which hole they choose. That is my place, my designed use. Yes sir, no sir, please sir, and they still respect me. Through the years I have even seduced a couple of my good straight friends into feeding me their beautiful cocks. Maybe it was under the guise of us having had a couple too many drinks. Maybe it was just once, but with one man, that sexy “mistake” happened more than once. No one ever spoke a word. I love those secrets. I am bisexual and that is okay. I am submissive, and that is bliss. Enjoy who you are, men, no matter when you come to realize who you are, what you are, enjoy it, embrace it. Joseph
I was enjoying reading your story until I got to this part “came to love that feminizing act of taking a trusted friend into my channel” and I really must take exception to it. I have NEVER once felt ‘feminized’ whilst being fucked, not even remotely and I suspect that it’s that way for the majority of men. I don’t have the mind of a ‘sub’ and I have no wish to have that mindset but please don’t make generalisations like that. Radbourne
Sorry Radbourne but I have to very much disagree with you, I have always know from an early age that my goal in life was to make men sexually happy and fulfilled. I was married for over 35 years and I am now a widower, my late wife knew of my attraction towards men and the need I had and we never let that change the wonderful relationship we had. And as a masculine man who did all the “normal” husband/father things repairing the car, decorating, woodwork etc that are often so wrongly labeled as “the mark of a true man!” I was and am a true man, but there is a time when I am with a man and I allow his cock to enter my body and make love to me like he would to a woman, that is when I allow my “feminine side” to take over my body and soul and give myself wholeheartedly to this dominant sexy man who is filling me with his God tool and the seed from his groin, so yes I feel at this time like I am more female than male, it is nothing to be ashamed of, it is something I cherish and honour that I have been able to stir up feelings in a man that he wants to make me his in the only way a man can and if that means at that moment in time the softer side of my personality takes over then so be it. We are all different and we should be allow to express ourselves as we feel, I do not think that Joseph was generalising about everyone, but telling us how he feels at that time and I for one feel the same, and I know other who also feel that way, after all are we not allowed to be ourselves and feel and express ourselves without fear of reprisal on this site? It is after all about men and their penises and sharing life experiences and helping those who may feel unable to be who they really are in this world come to terms with their feelings and needs and lusts, many men will feel that giving oneself over to another mans cock in the most intimate way possible should be expressed in many different ways and not just one, allowing yourself to be that other person at that moment in time is all part of the bigger picture, many men may think they don’t want to try it in case they are labled! Allowing them to see different views on how other men see themselves at that precious moment in time may open a new world for them. Please try not to be so judgemental and take that persons experience for what it is to them and the gift of sharing their story with all of us.
My journey also began at a young age when I discovered a gloryhole in a local department store mens room. I quickly learned that there are men who are hungry for cock and cum and that their hunger leads them to seek it from strangers. From there I found a gay magazine – Blueboy – which I became enthralled with. I began to masturbate to images of beautiful cocks – I remember being sooo turned on simply seeing a penis and the obvious fact that a penis is the ultimate display of sexuality. I went on to marry a wonderful woman who I remain deeply in love with, but all of my solo sex is focused on the wonderful sexual connection men have to one another through their cocks.
Thank You Phalluster
Regarding older men enjoying sex with a much younger man, I have had some experience on both ends of this scenario. When I was in my 20’s I was “seduced” by one of my profs at university.
I have that word in quotes because, although he was definitely encouraging my engagement, I knew I was a free agent and could decline at any time. But my curiosity was on fire so I followed his lead.
He was ostensibly tutoring me at his place off campus, in “mature karst topography”, a branch of geology which studies underground limestone pillars, deep caverns and sinkholes. He taught me a great deal about pillars and deep caverns. He touched on some actual geology too. He was non-confrontational, a good listener and a believer in the teaching theory of visual example and learn by doing.
He opened a whole new world that I had no knowledge of, in a way that was respectful of my ignorance, yet unbelievably intense. Each moment with him is burned into my memory.
Years, decades pass and I’m a sexually active gay man living in the Gay Village. A friend and I were enjoying a drink at a popular leather bar, when I look across the room and see my geology prof! I was gobsmacked! I couldn’t let this moment slip away. I walked over to him, saying ‘I think we’ve met before, many years ago…’ I knew he wouldn’t remember me. I’m sure he enjoyed the company of many young men. I described his class in geology and a kind of surprised smile came across his face. I said, ‘I just want to thank you very much for the way you introduced me to a wonderful trip down the path less travelled.’ He smiled broadly and closed his eyes. When he opened them they were brimming with tears. He held my hand and kissed me on the cheek and I returned to my bud on the other side of the room.
That experience formed the template for my interactions with the men I met over the years, especially those young men who seem to be attracted to ‘daddy’ types. I made sure that I left every man in a better frame of mind, a more evolved understanding of himself and gay life. There were times when things didn’t work out in my favour, but it was the more responsible thing to do. Love, trust and consistency were embedded in my interactions with these young men, who were often taciturn and highly suspicious of everyone they met. They would often come back over months and years, I think because they knew me, knew they would enjoy themselves. Even now, after decades, I receive messages or bump into men on the street who are effusive in their compliments of times long since past! I’m always a little nonplussed but accept their kind words.
“And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.”
-Sir Paul McCartney
I have been confronted with similar situations, where many men often express great upset -anger even, at the thought of a bottom appearing to embrace his feminine side. I know many bottoms but none have ever expressed any desire to explore the fem side of himself during sex, nor have I observed any of my fukbois exhibiting fem characteristics. That doesn’t mean there aren’t bottoms who revel in their fem side. Guys are just honouring (Canadian spelling) who they are. If you choose to envision your fem self being penetrated by the strong, masculine male, knock yourself out! You do you.
Bottom line (pun intended), if you as a Top don’t care for fem dudes, keep it in your pants. You know as well as I do that there are plenty of masculine fukbois out there ready to spread their legs for you.
Sorry Radbourne but I have to very much disagree with you, I have always know from an early age that my goal in life was to make men sexually happy and fullfilled. I was married for over 35 years and I am now a widower, my late wife knew of my attraction towards men and the need I had and we never let that change the wonderful relationship we had. And as a masculine man who did all the “normal” husband/father things repairing the car, decorating, woodwork etc that are often so wrongly labled as “the mark of a true man!” I was and am a true man, but there is a time when I am with a man and I allow his cock to enter my body and make love to me like he would to a woman, that is when I allow my “feminine side” to take over my body and soul and give myself wholeheartedly to this dominant sexy man who is filling me with his God tool and the seed from his groin, so yes I feel at this time like I am more female than male, it is nothing to be ashamed of, it is something I cherish and honour that I have been able to stir up feelings in a man that he wants to make me his in the only way a man can and if that means at that moment in time the softer side of my personality takes over then so be it. We are all different and we should be allow to express ourselves as we feel, I do not think that Joseph was generalising about everyone, but telling us how he feels at that time and I for one feel the same, and I know other who also feel that way, after all are we not allowed to be ourselves and feel and express ourselves without fear of reprisal on this site? It is after all about men and their penises and sharing life experiences and helping those who may feel unable to be who they really are in this world come to terms with their feelings and needs and lusts, many men will feel that giving oneself over to another mans cock in the most intimate way possible should be expressed in many different ways and not just one, allowing yourself to be that other person at that moment in time is all part of the bigger picture, many men may think they don’t want to try it in case they are labled! Allowing them to see different views on how other men see themselves at that precious moment in time may open a new world for them. Please try not to be so judgemental and take that persons experience for what it is to them and the gift of sharing their story with all of us.
“Take me to you, imprison me, for I,
Except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish me.”
For me, being fucked by a man I long to be entered by, doesn’t make me feel “feminine.” It makes me feel that I’ve been possessed and “ravished” by someone John Donne called “God.”
Thank You AJ
I was enjoying reading your story until I got to this part “came to love that feminizing act of taking a trusted friend into my channel” and I really must take exception to it. I have NEVER once felt ‘feminized’ whilst being fucked, not even remotely and I suspect that it’s that way for the majority of men.
I don’t have the mind of a ‘sub’ and I have no wish to have that mindset but please don’t make generalisations like that.
Bravo! Well Said
I was introduced to gay male sex when I was young by a neighbor boy that noticed my curiosity into male contact. I have always been grateful that he did that for me. All of my sexual experiences have been with other guys. As I got older traveling to other countries I learned homosexual men are everywhere. All one has to do is look and you will find men willing to help you achieve your sexual needs.
So pleased I found you and reading your brief summary of being taught my a caring man the joys of sucking and worshipping cock. My first time sucking cock was amazing and so natural for me. He saw my potential as a young lad and must have noticed the hunger in my eyes to service hard throbbing man cock. Jumped into his car and a short drive then parking. Soon as I saw his full member revealed as he opened his pants my eyes fixated on his gorgeous cock I knew I wanted to taste it and make love to his glorious cock. I continue to desire to worship cock whenever possible.
Trevor,,
I remember how nervous I was that first time, but excited as well. I was 18, he was 35 and a trusted neighbor, mentor and friend. He must have simply seen my want, my curiosity, my potential. I trusted him, was calmed and assured by him that this was natural, that it was okay, our secret and that if it wasn’t right for me, we could stop at any time. We undressed at the same time and I was transfixed on his hard member. He touched me, gently and urged me to do the same. It was all sweet and natural as we laid on his bed together and he urged and instructed me to take him into his mouth. I found heaven and never looked back. Every man, young or old who he connected me to proved to be another fine and fulfilling partner.
Were the age difference “wrong?” If I want to get legal and moral, I know that they were, but nothing was forced and I loved them all.
Be well, my friend.
Joseph